September 20th

Last nite:
Double Cheeseburger: 460
Small French Fries: 250
½ cup chocolate milk: 85
795 + 655 = 1450

I beat my goal by 350 calories. I had McD’s last nite because DH has been sick and that’s what he wanted. But here’s the deal. I ate about 4 or 5 bites of the burger and was totally satisfied. But I didn’t stop. I could’ve just stopped right there, but I didn’t. The whole “don’t waste food” mantra keeps going through my head and I can’t seem to shut it up. The milk was the same way. The milk was low-fat and the calcium was good for me, but I didn’t need to drink it. I just did it because it was in the fridge and didn’t want it to go bad. This is the one thing I am having the hardest time getting over.

So far today:

Special K with Fat free Milk - 150
Can of coke – 140
Healthy Choice meal – 370*
(*probably less, I didn’t eat the peas and carrots)
Mini Snickers – 43

1097 calories left for dinner.

I am probably going out to lunch today to the new City Café. I don’t know what they have, but if it’s healthy at least, I think I will be okay.

I’m debating about my coke habit. One a day isn’t bad in the grand scheme of things. I wish I could eliminate that one completely, but it has been difficult. I need the caffeine and I detest diet coke with a passion. I thought about bringing in my own diet dr. pepper, but not sure if I can hide it well enough. (Reminds me of the radio commercial where the guy brings in 48 cans, and by mid morning they were all gone.) My other option is tea, but it gets so warm in here, I really can’t stand to drink it. It’s just too darn hot.

UPDATE:
No lunch out today. I’m feeling like a kicked puppy dog today. Logic would tell me to run to the nearest burger stand, but I’m not going to do it. I’m going to be strong. I’ll sit with my buddy at work and hope that she can make me laugh like she always does. Part of me wants to run home and crawl under the covers. But I won’t do it. I’m going to stay here, finish my work and eat my Healthy Choice meal as planned. Today will be a strong test to my willpower.